cause i know how i feel about you.

Hey peeps! One more day to go and it'll be Christmas! Heeey, I haven't received a gift from you yet. Hmmm. Ohyeah! I have a new pair of sneakers to brag this season! Joke! LMAO =) Umm, not really though. I'm not the kind. Anyway, it's in red and black (fits the season, right?) and it came with a free extra black laces, and not to mention baby V's poster. I'm not really a fan, but it looks good beside my Jonas Brothers' Tigerbeat poster, which I really love. This Christmas, my manito gave me a set of cosmetic brushes, which I'm in no way using as of the moment and a silver pouch that I used to house in my phone. Not saying that I'm not happy with what I received, just that, they're not what I wrote in my wish list. Cosmetic brushes?? :/ I hardly even wear make-up in school. Hmm, in the future prolly, I will. Despite everything, I'm still happy cause of those stuff. &oh! My manita gave me a new pink wallet! I picked it myself for I was with her when she bought it. xD Much to ruin the surprise. Heh.

2:41 Am, and I'm still up. I used to stay up due to writing stories during spare time. I've written a Christmas fic, which I wrote last December. This year...somehow, I couldn't write. I want to but when I'd stare at the blank document, story ideas would go *poof!*- gone. Writer's block. For almost a year already. It began when I started college. College has this mind-blocking effect on me.....................

I'm bored. You know me..........

Surveyyy!

1.Scared to fall in love?

= sort of, i must say. xD

2.What's the connection between you and the last person who called you?

= we're connected by blood.

3.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?

= yep, when I feel the need to relax and be free from stimuli.

4.What happened at 3:00 pm Yesterday?

= Chowking at SM with my family. (except my bro)

5.What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?

= aside from bread, apple.

6.What do you want to happen?

= umm, I don't know really.

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?

= umbrella. wearing hood still has no use, you're still gonna get wet.

8.What's your favorite song?

= idk. it keeps changing over time.

9.What's your favorite thing to have on your bed?

= my pillows and bolster. xD

10.What's the last text in your inbox

say?

= idk. prolly a quote.

11.How's your heart lately?

= why would you want to know?

12.Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?

= nope.

13. Do you take a bath everyday?

= don't you?

14.What are you doing tonight?

= idk. go sleep maybe, or watch tv, or surf- net surfing.

15.Can you sleep in jeans?

= nope unless if i'm dead tired and in no way able to change clothes.

16.Something you just don't understand?

= foreign languages.

18.Where were you on november 25, 2008?

= home after school.

19.Who was the last person

= the last person, what?

20.What is the last thing someone bought you?

= sneakers!

22.Do you trust people easily?

= idk. i don't know exactly if i whole-heartedly trust that person or i just felt like i have to cause there's no other person better to trust.

23.Relationship Status?

= single.

24.Do you care what others think about you?

= honestly, yes. when you're 17 your life depends on what people think about you. it's either they'd think you're cool and place you at the what's-hot or the other way and end up at the what's-not. but thinking of it repeatedly, i don't think i have time to care bout what people think about me. so, no.

25.Will you ever hug the last person you hugged again?

= sure. why not?

26.What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?

= nothing really. i have nothing to look forward in the next 3 months cause i have summer classes. arghhhh!

27.Do you put your subject on before you type the bulletin or after?

= doesn't matter.

28.Who was the last friend who went in your house?

= J.

29.Are you happy?

= yea, I am.

30.Is there someone you want to confront?

= no one as of the moment.

31.Song playing right now?

= about you now - miranda cosgrove. (LSS xD)

32.What are you doing tomorrow?

= have my hair cut.

33.What's annoying you right now?

= a fact. (FACT: I have to sleep!)

34.What are you thinking about right now?

= #33.

35.Do you wish at 11:11?

= when i'm exactly on time, which rarely happens.

36.Next vacation you're goin on?

= idk. i dun have summer, remember? devastating, i know. =(

37.What do you hear?

= #31

39.When was the last time you talked to your #2 featured friend (FS)?

= i don't feature friends there.

40.What were you doing at 10 pm?

= watching "Wild Child" for the 2nd time.

41.What time did you wake up today?

= 11 Am. it's the least i can do this vacation.

42.Do you prefer to call or text someone?

= text. i'm not comfortable speaking over receiver.

44.Who knows the most about you?

= 3 people: ME, MYSELF & I.

45.Where do you go when you want to be alone?

= in the bathroom. LOL. jk! i haven't had any 'alone' place yet.

46.When was the last time you ate spaghetti?

= idkwhen. but i ate pancit canton yesterday.

47.How many pairs of flip flops do you own?

= 3-4.

48. Who is the last person to see you cry?

= there were a lot of my blockmates and a teacher in the scene. embarrassing. =.=

49.Why were you crying

= DEMO. >:(



BYEBYE.

One should pay attention to one's sleep as one pays attention to one's looks.

now i have 5 hrs left for my 4 stages of nrem sleep and a stage of rem sleep.



xo,

-♥C.

something happened before Christmas!

RUN, BABY! It's the first day of break! WEEEEEEEE. I looooove Christmas! Not because of the break but because of Christmas itself =)

Sup, beeyuhtchess?! How's all of yer day so far? Mine's still on the "boring" status! Weird that I find myself missing going to school on Saturdayss. Srsly, I AM!

Anywhoooooo, lemme give you a recap on what happened to me during my days of silence. (I'll write only summary of it since running it down by details will take much of my preciouss time but I really wouldn't mind detailing the 4th one. HEHE.)

SOMETHING HAPPENED BEFORE CHRISTMAS!

finished 3 return demos!

i cried during the 2nd one. ='(

the C.I's loved our presentation on the last one.

painted my toe nails green and finger nails with pink and green.

yesterday we had our Christmas party entitled, "Something Happened before Christmas". Wewhopreferredsittingratherthanperforming, a.k.a the audience, witnessed the out of this world talents of our schoolmates. Search for Santa's Winxes, Search for the Grinch, Chorale Competition, Horaay Contest and intermission numbers caused 100 decibels measured screams. The 4th year prepared everything and they did great. They arranged everything (contests, intermission numbers, & etc) in a story-like form (Plot: Santa had an accident and was admitted in the Ortho ward. Santa sent a letter to the media saying that his elves left him and now he's searching for replacement, that is, Search for Santa's Winxes and in the letter he said North Pole now lost it's music so he searched for the best chorale who could fix that problem (I don't know the story behind Horaay Contest), and the investigators' primary suspect was the Grinch who's still on loose. For fun, we had disco and that night, I had a very awkward conversation that lasted for almost a minute with my C.I.-slash-sorta crush, which, by the way, was the cause of my "good evening" greeting to him, which he didn't hear much clearly.

we ended up going to mango without finishing the disco cause the invited band played over-rated songs.

loved my eyes (with sparkly white and brown eyeshadow & liquid mascara)

sounded like a total beeeyotch! wanna know why? huh?! LMAO! It's because of the movie, "Wild Child". Actually, it's not only me who sounded like a beyotch these past few weeks but also my batchmates. HEHE. Yup, they loved the movie! Go see and learn things, beeyotch. HAHA.

redid my layout (you may notice), && added music. Enjoy it babe cause it'd play foreverrrr.

Run, baby, run. Don't ever look back!

Forever will be, you and me ♥

gotta go have lunch!

PEACE OUT!


xo,
-♥C.

i miss highschool. so bad.

I miss every little thing about it. I miss my school uniform, my friends, teachers...EVERYTHING. Ayoko na! First year palang dami nang problema!

This is it, people. I've already made my decision that I'll hate my college life forever (Overreacting ba? You don't have any idea kasi about what happened). IDK why. I want to transfer schools so bad cause something (err, someone) pushed me to want so. Actually, not just only one but a whole group of them. I won't mention what breed (LOL.) nor mention their kind, it would just piss me off and you wouldn't want that (=. They've caused me (and my other close friend) pain up to now. Di lang kasi ordinaryng pain, it's even worse than having an unlucky day. I don't know when this will end and neither do I know how will this end. Tsk. Tsk. This is unfortunately hard, it's just me (and my other friend. But I felt that it's just me that they're hating on) versus them. I do have other close friends to stand by me but they aren't that supportive unlike my HS friends whom I miss most! And I can sense that they don't want to get theirselves into this.

But the game isn't fair! They started everything! I'm basically the victim who didn't do anything bad or mean to them that pushed them to do mean things to me!

F.Y.I., they even didn't say sorry to me after I found out what their modus operandi was. But when one of them heard me say kanina sa may burger stand, "Amigo sa g**t*y" (since yung close friend ko na involved dito heard them saying her name then mine and she was going to say it to me but may ka-tropa sila na nandun so she said, "Mamaya na. Nandito kasi yung isa nilang kaibigan" and she said it sarcastically and so I replied with what's scripted above), sinabi niya agad sa isa pa niyang friend na sa tingin niya ay ang tinutukoy ko. Then after that I heard this "giatay friend" of his saying, "G**t*y! BLAHBLAHBLAH*" (*I dunno what this was kasi I wasn't paying attention to him/her).

I HATE THEM. THEY'RE SO IMMATURE TO
REACH COLLEGE OR EVEN GET INTO THIS KIND OF INSTITUTION. THEY'RE SO STUPID NOT
TO THINK OF THE PAIN THEY CAUSED US IN THE FIRST PLACE & THINK ONLY OF THE STUPID THING I SAID
OUT OF ANGER AND HAD THEIR PRIDE HELD ABOVE THEIR STUPID HEADS!

I so want to tell my parents about this. Earlier, I really want to tell mom that I wanna transfer schools but I can't easily leave since it's a great school.

Then my mind had this stupid but great idea that I should just not mind them and let time heal things.

Like, as if!

What should I f*cking do?! HELP!

P.S. Sorry for cussing. I just don't know other ways to release my anger.

xo,

-♥C.

keep coming 'round.

Hey! Back from never never land. Weee.

You see, I haven't updated my entries since September. I was pretty much preoccupied with school and I couldn't somehow squish in writing into my schedule- but I managed to steal time just to change my skin. Cause I was, well, tired of my previous skin.

Anyway, it's now October! I'm stoked! I'm stoked. Go figure why. Hehe.

=3 =3 =3

Soo, there's this song and everytime I would listen to this, I feel sad.

Hmm, why?

Same question I have in mind. Why kaya? Don't say that it reminds me of my boyfriend cause; uno, I never had one (NBSB ang dating!); dos, I will never get one until I finish college (I promised that to myself. "Promises are meant to be broken." Hmm, let's wait and see); and tres, I prefer drowning myself with tons of crushes than sticking to one. Hellooohs!? I'm not ashamed admitting that I never had one cause there are like millions of us, NBSB's and I'm just one of them.

But, I tell you, even though my lovelife's stuck on zero, I won't deny that I do have my own kilig moments. Hmmm, it's a private matter. Tsk2. I'll tell you when I'm ready. See?! I'm sooo conservative. Is it because I'm an NBSB?

What?! Oh, you mean, what's the song? Click and you'll find out. =3

Ohh, it's raining. The wind must've felt my sadness and carried rain with him. Great, cause the song totally fits in to the weather. Haaay, such coincidence.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot. I've heard 'bout the Joe-Taylor breakup and all I can say is that,

You are the one that I belong to; and don't you leave me.

- C.

HAHA. Okay, I have this huge crush on Joe Jonas and I know I'm not the only one. I'd sound hypocrite if I'd say, "I feel sad for what happened" cause I'm sort of not and I'm sad about me being mean by admitting that. *ding!* OMG! I just realized that no matter what will happen to Joe's lovelife, I'll never be a part of it.

D'oh?!

Uhh, thanks for stating the obvious, you guys. Ugh! Stupid distance and social status differences!. Dx

xo,

-C.

my umpire.

i could've at least pretend that i don't like you cause it's all for the best.

Know what?! I hate myself for getting so giddy yesterday. It's weird how I used to think that what I did was right then take them back hours after. I've come to realized that it was wrong. So wrong. Lately, that expression has been giving me problems- like, what should I do when I see you? will everything change? should I do it again? and regrets.

What can I say?! I'm good at what I did- that's my problem. It used to be a normal thing to do before. But you changed that. Now, it won't be the same normal thing that I'm capable of doing. Only when you're around, though. How can a movement of approximately 13-17 facial muscles picture an indescribable, intergalactic wide-like feeling? How can a smile do that? Wait, is that even possible?

Keep in mind that, just because you look like my friend's ex-bf, or you're soooo good in softball- err, I mean AMAZING in softball (I like what you did yesterday, I have to admit. Like, how you slid your way to the 2nd base), or you look good when you're playing the sport, or even cute when you smile, and sporty, and- and you look damm** good in your softball uniform, it doesn't mean that I fully like like you.

Umm...let's just wait and see.

&& thanks for your support and trust. *Sigh* If you only knew how happy I was when you talked to me when I was standing on 3rd base while waiting for my turn to home run.

Know that, you'll always be my umpire that I have a crush on. <3

No people, I'm not talking about iPod. I'm over him already. He already has a girlfriend. Puh-leez! I'm so fed up with thoughts of him, okieees. And besides, I don't get to see him on a regular basis. We're better off as strangers.

B/N: After days of hiatus, I'm back!

P.S. It's just like, okay? and not love. LOLZ.

P.P.S. Let's keep the site child-friendly (**)

P.P.P.S. B/N = Blogger's Note. HEH.

xo,

-♥C.

not possible for me not to care;

Miss me? Heh. You know you do. Don't deny it. HAHA. Seriously, I'm just tryin' to piss you off. LOL. Did it work? Tell me later, mmkay?

I came home very late. My parents' were pretty angry 'bout that. Luckily, I thought of blurting out first the reason why I came home late so that they won't be able to talk just to scold me. Pretty smart, eh? They can't blame me.

So [let's jump back to the topic] my reason why I was late, it's because my batchmate lost his mother in a heart attack last September 08, 2008 and I went there to visit. I've known 'bout this tragedy days after it happened but I never had the time and energy [well, from whole day of practice] to pay a visit. It still wasn't planned so my money wasn't enough to pay for fares. Same thing happened with my two friends. HAHA. We were all B.R.O.K.E.

We made use of our wise brains and later came up with the same idea: BORROW MONEY. And so we did. We deposited our pride at the courtesy booth and claim it maybe after paying our debt.

&& so the journey continued...

We took a ride going to our first stop. And we were lucky to sit across 4 cute guys. HEHE. But we didn't flirt or anything. EW. They're like, younger than us. Pedophile, much?

When we reached first stop, we rode a miniature version of the jeepney we first rode going to our destination.

There were already people there; some of them are from my class who happened to be friends with him. I even saw my old classmate back in sixth grade. He's still 'her'self. If you get what I mean. Tsk. Tsk.

Geez, my friend lost weight. He used to be in a normal shape; not too skinny nor too huge. His weight was just enough for his body built. But now, he's like thinner.

I totally know what he feels right now. I recently lost my grandmother too. It was of course, sad but I can't do anything to bring her back. My tears aren't enough. Our tears aren't enough. It's hard to accept that the person you shared moments with passed away. That is why people can't blame me if I think or ask too much about his condition. He once helped me, now it's my turn to help him. My presence helped, I guess.

And one thing why I worry much about him is because...

I kind of like him.

-but
I won't let myself think about this cause I don't want to fall for him.

&& ANOTHER THING, I DON'T TAKE CRUSHES SERIOUSLY.

[So off-topic!]

That's all. HAHA...

'kbaybay.

P.S. Condolences, Friend.

xo,

-♥C.